First Fed5 pic(pembrooke)I'm updating.. just cause i think i should.. its been awhile since my last post...
So i've started 'talking' to my exboyfriend again....
I told him i was trying out selebacy (sp?)... he said he was cool with that... we'll see... about that... horney boys what can you do with them..?
Is it wrong to want to be with someone you dont really love.(or see yourself loving). just becasue your lonely and they fill that position...untill what you really want comes along??
I feel like im taking advantage of him... he likes me for me.. and apologises all the time for all the crap he put me through... and he wants nothing more.. than to win me back.. by trying his hardest to be the best guy he can be...
although.. i have seen the best guy he can be.. and i dont really see myself being with him...for forever... there are just too many things...that he does that i cant stand...
But hes.. soo cute.. (<--my shallow moment)... and he loves me.. and gives me all the attention that a girl could ever want... and i want that...
Just.. not from him....... but im lonely.... so ..... i let him.... i go along with.. it.. and i learn to put up with things.. i dont really like......
Could this slowly turn into something.. and by me spending so much time with him.. and playing that role.. (as his girlfriend).. could i fall in love with him........? honestly i doubt it....
I wish i would though.. then i wouldnt feel so bad about stealing his heart..... and not giving him mine in return...
